Load Shedding...

Mmmmm, ok people of Palace...

 

I feel the need 2 express my concern about the fact that at times people tend to look for support and love where they are sure to never find it.

 

This is sad, crazy and oh so true, not to mention relevant. Why when u have a certain group of people who do care and do want to support and help and all and all, do we not lean on them, but rather yearn for the support from the ones, subconsciously, we know we will never get support from?

 

I think what we r meant 2 learn from something this transparent is that we yearn for what we can't have by nature. What we can have feels easily obtained and therefore we misinterpret the intensity of that support. We tend to feel that if people are so quick to support, how strong is that support and will it be strong enough to maintain the level of need. Whereas, the support we battle to get and yet yearn for, we feel might be that unconditional support that might possibly dissolve the reason why support is needed.

 

Strangely this is making sense to me right now......

 

I have recently learnt to accept support that is easily extended (easily cause its out of love and not what can be gained), and let me tell u, it kinda takes a load off to be honest.

 

It is not easy to actually say 'I need help' or 'yes, thank u, ure help and concern and support is welcomed'.

 

Why is that though? Maybe cause we are so scared that if we let go of the burden, share it and then as soon as we get use to not carrying such a heavy deck of cards, that the support might fade and to build that strength up again to be able to manage carrying all the suits on your own, well it is just so exhausting gaining the strength to carry the load when you have the strength to begin with (he he he, yes I go in circles when I ponder). Once you share that load, well when u get it back, u have to find the strength again...

 

Maybe I'm mumbling and perhaps none of this makes sense, but hey, that's Dorey for u....

 

U know u love me, load and all

 

Xoxo